Send me a :-D at 1-3PST today

My funny bone was broken a few months ago. I have an important medical appointment today and I’m nervous. Please send me good vibes for my hand and a smiley face or joke for the rest of me today between 1-3 PST. California has gotten to me. This is really proving that everything I mock, I become.
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(use ichat, or aol.com. it will get sent to my phone)

Everyone is the expert on their own experience.

If yer equivocal about nothin’, yer hypocritical about somethin’.

Confidence is about what you don’t need.

If it’s imposed, it’s not discipline.

Thanks to Darius Abbassi for this gem.

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Originally uploaded by Peko Vincent Huang.

That I’m feeling a tiny bit better about the fact that I have to go to the hospital in 15 minutes and find out about nerve damage in my hand.

We miss each other.

We miss ourselves.

What happens when you get a pharmaceutical venture capitalist, a trans punk performer and a Sudanese refugee together over baked goods? Plenty.My first guest Antoun Nabhan struggles with the issue of heroism and courage in everyday life. In his office and plane-bound job, he wonders how and where the Courage shows up.Lynnee Breedlove demonstrated and some immediately, performed an excerpt from his solo piece One Freak Show about his genderqueer experience using public bathrooms. If he’s in the women’s bathroom, he gets told “there’s a man in the women’s bathroom.” The men’s bathroom is, apparently easier, in part becasue of the lack of eye contact and direct behaviour. You’ll have to listen to the podcast to catch all the nuances. We did have quite a discussion about bathroom behaviour. Lynnee demo’d the “piece- de’ beau” (I’m not sure how one spells it) that allows him to pee standing up. Look out Justin Timberlake, Lynnee’s got his own special present.Gadet Riek gave a new meaning and insight to everyday courage as he spoke about escaping Sudan on foot with his older brother. The greatest power of his story comes from the everyday nature of his act he reveals in the context of its time and place. No matter what questions he was asked by any of the guests or audience, his answers came back to the simple fact that it was the reality in which he found himself. There was no great moment, no epiphany, no John Willliams soundtrack letting him or anyone else know the greatness of his acts. “There was no time. We had to keep moving.”

Highlights and Links

One man in the audience asked Gadet about his feelings about his fellow students at USF. “They don’t realize how privileged they are.” Gadet responded by saying he does not resent or begrudge his classmates a thing, nor does he feel they should make their lives and different than they are. he himself would have accepted a life that came with more physical ease. Judging them “would change nothing about my life.”It was clear from the discussion and the connection between Lynnee and Gadet that courage is not about life without fear. It is, in part, about complete acceptance of oneself and life the way it is. With there is no need or inclination to judge others.

• Lost Boys of Sudan
• Save Darfur

Saturday November 11, 2006

i first heard about my first guest, love artist Kathe Izzo, during the Intimacy show, when Michelle Tea mentioned experincing intimacy when she was being loved by Kathy at a tremedous distance, across the country. “It just made me feel so good to know that three was someone out there loving me,” she said.

That seemed fascinating to me at the time, in an anthropological way. I didn’t understand that on a visceral level until I was injured just weeks before the Receiving show, and experienced asking for and receiving love at a distance from many people while recovering from my elbow surgery (I broke my funny bone. Comic karma).

Kathe takes love to new depths and certainly breadths. It is literally all she has done for years. She is a performance artist from the visual art tradition of installations. Her interest in the boundary between life and art drew her to the area of love and she had for years loved people, of every stripe in person at museum installations, at their homes for a day, or even at across the country while they are working at a bookstore, (as Michelle Tea was) sending them loving emails that come from a completely present place of loving acceptance.
While Kathe acknowledged that she is comfortable giving, the topic of Receiving was a challenge sh is working on. She has receintly been loaned a sum for career investment by a sweetie who wants to take care of her, a new adjustment she is making with her decision to value herself as she does everyone she will love (which is anyone)

Former San Francisco 49ers Tight End Dr. Jamie Williams gave a profound life and football receiving lesson. He picked a random woman out of the audience to teach who turned out to have quarterbacked her Nebraska high school team’s powder puff team. (I love how the midwest tries to mix a cosmetic term in there to make it seem like the girls aren’t really playing football).

Jamie had great chemistry with Kathe which I really enjoyed. I love it when the show brings together people who might not otherwise meet. Both Kathe and Jamie seemed to be coming at life questions in some similar ways, despite their very different pursuits in film and football (Jamie) and performance art (Kathe).

Shanan Carney, also known as the Voice of Tivo discussed her recuperation from her recent knee surgery. A neighbor kindly agreed to bring her ice every day to fill a special machine which cooled the swelling. This small act of kindness has prompted Shanan to soon launch a vlog called “Random Acts of Kindness” based on the premise that vrey small, meaningful acts can make a huge difference. Both of us, based on our injuries, agreed that receiving can make one feel compelled to give. Shanan called her doctor to find out who else had a surgery and needed ice. She later came over to my place, complete with elf costume, cohort and camera crew to loan me the ice machine and ice to cool my elbow, prepping for the vlog.

Audience regular Scott brought a fabulous Linzer tort. I will ask him for the recipe to post here.

Highlights and Links

• Even though Kathe has gone to the home of complete strangers in New York City to love them for the day, she has never felt unsafe. “If I am giving them everything they need,then what more can they want?” She has held her ground by clearly taking care of her own needs and letting those who are emotionally needy that her own aegis matters.
• Jamie Williams – “To catch the ball, you have to want to catch the ball.”
• Kathe Izzo’s True Love Project
• In order to truly receiv one has to not give back to the giver right away. This is something of a refusal of the kindness (and whatever else being given to you). If you feel compelled to give yourself, then as people say, “pay it forward.”